day # 252 only 113 more to go...

Yes, the too tight jeans still fit and it's been over a week. Addiction free is working in many ways. One day at a time.

The chemistry man set me on fire and I keep reminding myself 'what is meant to be will be' and wanting to know the future is irrelevant. Reality is he has someone else so there is no relationship between us - I don't need a psychic to tell me this. I'm disappointed but it's good practice. 

With only 113 more days to go, I can't believe I've made it this far in my journey. I didn't know what to expect, I didn't know how hard it would be and I didn't know how deep my addiction ran. 

It's actually very freeing to be saying goodbye to the future and live in the present. I think I like it.

Time to put on my jeans, a cute sweater and take on the world!

day #243 only 122 more to go...

Another week has passed and I am still prediction free. Even better news I fit into the jeans that were too tight. Now that's what I call personal progress.

What more is there to say? Maybe being prediction free is fat free...

day # 237 only 128 more to go...

Yes, it's been two weeks and it seems my addiction has less of a hold on me but it still whispers in my ear. Today a friend told me that he is seeing an astrologer to help him with the choices he is currently facing. They can help right?

Last week a different friend told me that she's a Pisces in Ayuvedic Astrology instead of a Scorpio in 'normal' astrology. Woah, that's a big difference. So who is right? How can it be so different?

Halloween found me experiencing chemistry with an acquaintance. It's been a long time since I've felt that and as much as I enjoyed it I realized that I was wondering how he fits into my life. Could be as simple as he helped me feel again.

He is light haired, light eyed, thin, tall(ish) okay not 'tall', from an 's' country though not Scandinavian, and I haven't gotten close enough to see if he has a small scar above his left eye. Yes, the shaman's description is still in my brain.

Admittedly, I checked out our astrological compatibility and it seems like a great match but potentially full of challenge. But then again what relationship isn't? Maybe it's best just to stay friends with this one.

Wohoooo....only 128 more days to go!

day #223 only 142 more to go...

3 convertibles - seems odd doesn't it?

I can't believe I've made it this far. One good thing about being busy is that it keeps me from thinking too much. You know I think too much, right? I can't help it, it's just who I am...

I rolled up to a red light and as I pondered the shade of red knowing it keeps life organized or there might be accidental chaos, I noticed a heart decal and as I looked more closely it was the same initials as my ex. It gave me a bit of a jolt and the randomness (is there such a thing) of the moment made me laugh, shake my head and ask wtf? 

Red light + ex's initials. If it was a 'sign' could it get more clear than that?

Halloween's here and a busy schedule has me re-viving my devil costume. Temptation is what this blog is all about and who better to temp than the devil? Tempting was the offer from the other night and instead of asking the stars what to do, I am now attempting to discern all by myself. Sounds easy? Maybe it's something you've been doing all of your life but me, I usually turned to spiritualists for the answers. Yes, I know that's what got me here.

'The devil made me do it' excuse can only be used just so many times but I think it might work once more. I'll let you know how it goes...

day #205 only 160 more to go...

spells...that's a whole other topic

One day at a time. That's what it's been taking me and as the sunsets I know my life is one more day closer to what I don't know. See, that's why there are psychics, palm readers, free tarot so people can see what they are getting closer to. 

Just finished Power of Intention by Wayne Dyer and it has given me tools that I can use instead of relying on someone else. Granted, it took me 3 months to read but worth it. It suggests that I have the ability to make my life what I want instead of asking someone else how it will end up. Haven't given much practice to his steps because there are so many but just like my addiction to predictions I am moving forward albeit slowly but surely.

Wish I had more to say. I'm feeling freer and freer as the days go by so there is a light at the end...