day #16 only 349 left

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Weepy and weary for a few days and not feeling great made me lonely because there's no one here to dote on me hence I start missing my recent ex and wonder if he might change his mind. It triggers my addiction to predictions. Maybe it's the herbal de-tox, the acupuncture, no alcohol, no sugar, no greasy foods that has stirred up these feelings or if it's just Spring. Spring gives me hope for the future which led to questions that keep me up at night:

Will he come back? 

Does he still love me? 

Did he ever love me? Not really a prediction so maybe it's more like 'could' he ever love me? 

Is there really a 'One'?

If he exists where is he?

Today, I met a variety of Scandinavian-ish men. Sounds strange, right? And it is since I live very far away from those countries. Oh and one Aussie. My mood lightened as I thought about the description the Shaman gave me of The One but none fit the physical description except that one but we didn't really speak. 

I took it as a sign from the Universe not to give up hope. Or it could be that I haven't had a date in over 9 months and am becoming a bit boy crazy. At any rate, I even gave the Aussie consideration because the psychic (3yrs ago) said my perfect match and I would travel to Australia. Besides he's kind of cute.

If the Iching won't give me a straight answer maybe the Tarot will but if the Tarot refuses to say it so I can understand it's on to the Runes. If all of that fails maybe it's time for a real person...

No, I have not logged on to my favorite sites, have looked at but not touched the Iching coins on the desk and thankfully, it's late and I work tomorrow so it's time to sleep.

They say it takes 18 days to free oneself from an addiction. I am grateful that today is #16!

Thank you for your support...