day #7

A shaman told me that I'd meet my Beloved, he is tall, thin, light haired, light eye, small scar above his left eye, younger than me, swedish/scandinavian or such. A mutual friend would introduce us, I would not give him much notice, he is not what he appears to be, I'd be pregnant with a daughter when we married but not to worry, my life would be fulfilling and happy. Sounds like Dolph Lundgren type but I'm hoping a bit less macho.

"Why not give me his name and # so we can get on with it" I laughed. 

"You know I can't do that" she smiled lovingly at me since she's been like a mother in my life.

I took this information spread it through my friends to see if anyone could find him. We had hours and hours of fun and laughs over this, my craziest reading ever. 1 month later my life changed drastically, I quit my job for one in another country that paid 1/10th less, I sold everything I owned and off I went into the unknown.

I met a man; tall, (not so) thin, light haired, light eyes, younger than me, Swiss (starts w/an 's') but because he didn't have a scar I passed on his offers. 

I met a man; (not so) tall, light haired, light eyes, younger than me, Dutch (not Scandinavia but close enough), scar above his right eye (left, right who cares?), and I made him into 'The One'. He agreed to be The One so our relationship flourished like wild fire.

Did we marry? Yes.

Was I pregnant? No.

Are we married? No. 

Was he The One? I don't know, maybe?

I can't believe I'm still addicted to predictions after that fiasco. Of course, I made a call to the shaman during my divorce. How could it be? Was the beautiful life she had told me of over? Reality is, it was as if I had squeezed him into her description like a pair of jeans that were way too tight. She assured me "he" is out there. You're kidding me right?

A few years ago I spoke with a psychic. You'd think I'd learned my lesson. My friend referred her so she must know what she's talking about, right? She too mentioned my Beloved. Want to know more about him? 

He is egoless, no strings attached, golden lion beautiful energy (is he a leo?), funny, low drama, carefree, comfortable in the world. Ahhhh, he sounds perfect. We'll travel together, like two wolves so at ease with one another, he'll come/go from my home. We'll have two homes and in the next 5 years (minus 3) we will travel to Cali and Oz. There's still hope - 2 years to go...

Don't you feel great for me? 

I felt great for myself after her reading. I even found love again except he recently informed me that he no longer wants to be together and isn't coming back from his "S" country. Writing this entry is keeping me from asking any form of free divination (I'm on a budget now that gas is over $4/gallon) if we'll reconcile. I have to admit he had "strings attached" but he fit me like my favorite pair of jeans! 

Has my addiction to predictions sent me down roads I had no business traveling and in jeans that made my arse look big? 


Maybe. 


Any regrets? Not yet...