day #21 only 344 more to go...

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April is here and no one fooled me though I've definitely fooled myself more than once.

The 2nd card in my January reading was The Fool. The tarot reader (for entertainment only she said while shuffling) explained that it represented my faith, naivety, all giving, kindness,  generosity  and my love of Life's journey.  Maybe being a fool isn't that bad after all. 

Luckily, she didn't say the Gemini or Aquarius man who's coming into my life (for how long is unknown) was a fool so there's hope in that. Last night my dated suggested we have another. I wonder his birthday. 

If I ask him aren't I feeding into my addiction and running the risk of either:

A) not giving him a chance if he's not a Gemini (2 exes) or an Aquarian. 

B) giving him too much of a chance if he is.

What is a fool?

Is it pretending not to see what's really happening?

Is it thinking that predictions will come true? 

Is it having faith that in the end everything works out?

I know I'm a fool for telling my ex I still care. 

My addiction has me up late wondering about the Fool's Journey and praying my journey will fill me full of faith.